This is so random

I haven’t blogged for almost a month now and I’m sorry. There aren’t any interesting events in my life this summer for I am a boring person and I don’t get out of the house, the main reason being that there’s no one who wants to hang out with me which brings us back to the fact that I am, in no doubt, a boring person. Don’t worry yourselves though, i have accepted that fact years before.

Anyway, I got my grades for the last term and I was debating if I should post it or not, obviously I decided on the latter. My grades were lower compared to the first two terms so I decided to not post it, I’m embarrassed about it. It’s not that there was a drastic change but I just failed to push it further in order to meet my scholarship requirements. But, I still managed to get a 25% scholarship. That’s a good side, right? Yeah, that’s what I tell myself.

Moving on, I have been reading a lot of fanfictions on the internet since summer break started and since then I always slept late, in which late means the sun rising in full bloom. It’s just that I can’t help myself, okay! If I started reading something, I had to finish it no matter what! It fascinates me how i feel bored all the time but still keep myself awake doing the same things everyday. I wanna go out but I know that once I’m out of the house, I’ll be wanting to go back within a few hours or minutes. This had happened before. ๐Ÿ˜›

OH! I haven’t blogged the thing we did last month. I was planning on blogging about it but I got lazy, as always. ๐Ÿ˜€ But now’s not the time to laze around!

Do we look happy? Yes? Coz we are! This was a birthday party for the one wearing the green shirt and also a despedida for her because she’s moving to Cagayan de Oro. I was sad about it but I chose not to show it because I do not like crying and I am definitely sure that if one of us starts, then we’ll all end up sobbing. LOL. ๐Ÿ˜›

That slipper was not intentionally added to make this scene picturesque. I kid, I kid. ๐Ÿ˜›

These are my bestest of best friends! ๐Ÿ™‚ Unfortunately, as I said above, the girl in brown is moving in Cagayan while the girl in black won’t be studying in the same college anymore. Which means, only I and the one in white will stay. I will definitely miss this. *weeps*

This blog entry has been so random! I started talking about how boring I am to how frustrated I was about my grades then to how my sleeping patterns have changed dramatically to a swimming I had with my friends! Oh well, that’s just me. I am very random and weird. But I think that’s just fine coz those people above still like me. ๐Ÿ™‚ I think that’s enough for me.

A thing i like

i think i have a thing for tragic and sad stories. i dont know why but i like to write those kinds of stuff and read them, too. my favorite movie is A Walk To Remember based from the book by Nicholas Sparks, it’s a sad story and even though i’ve watched it a hundred times, i still cry on certain parts of it. i really can’t explain why i enjoy the angst in all of those.

i’m saying this because if i’m gonna write another story, i guarantee that it will be a sad one or maybe just a little twist to it. i really don’t like predictable endings. as much as i like Perks Of Being A Wallflower, i haven’t even reached the middle of the film, i already knew how it’s gonna end. i read the book after watching the book and i suggest that NO ONE do that! make sure that you read the book first before watching the movie. well, that’s my opinion.

the last thing i read was 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher and i recommend it to every teenager out there, also those in their early twenties… ๐Ÿ™‚ i just really don’t think Selena Gomez would be a fitting actress for the lead role, Hannah Baker. the movie isn’t out on the cinemas yet and i don’t know if they’re shooting it already. i just heard of this just to make things clear.

now, may we all have a great summer!

me, my friends and college

Dahil sa tagal kong nawala at wala pa akong naisusulat na kahit anong update sa aking blog, naisipan ko tuloy na bumisita sa aking site. ๐Ÿ™‚ Magkukwento lang naman ako eh… tungkol sa mga kaibigan ko, tungkol sa college… mga normal days lang. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Tulad na lang ng picture na ‘yan sa taas. Napaka-random… hindi ko na nga maalala kung anong araw ‘yan kinunan eh basta alam ko, isa ‘yan sa mga recent pics namin. ๐Ÿ™‚ Yung naka-jacket na blue, si Charlie ‘yan. siya ang kaibigan ko na sinasabing hindi raw siya Pilipino kaya sabi ko naman, “Taksil ka!” hahaha ๐Ÿ™‚ Yung naka-brown na jacket naman si Ren-Ren at ako yung babaeng naka-blue sa gilid. Kaya kami nasa gilid ni ren-ren ay dahil binalak naming matulog niyan eh. LOL. pero obviously, we weren’t successful. ๐Ÿ˜›

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at ito naman, obvious na obvious naman, nung Valentine’s Day ito kinunan. nasa mall kasi kami at nakita namin itong booth na ito kaya nagpicturan na lang kami dahil pare-pareho kaming mga walang date nung araw na iyon. ๐Ÿ˜€ ahahaha. at ito pa pala, nilibre kami ni Charlie ng chocolate cake nun! yum yum. at kinain din namin yung chocolate cake na dala ni Jaki nung day na ‘yon. may event din pala yung school nung araw na ‘yon so hindi naman kami malungkot… although, lahat ng Valentine surprises ng boys sa school ay hindi mga successful… well, hindi naman ako yung ni-surprise kaya i will not say anything more. mwahahhahahaha!

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yes, this is us again. ๐Ÿ™‚ hindi pa naman mandatory mag-uniform sa school kaya hindi pa kami lagi nag-uuniform. Tuesday nga ang uniform day namin eh pero sabi sa amin ni ma’am *, tuwing monday na lang daw para nakikita niya… haha. anyway, natripan lang naman namin ‘to dahil lahat nga kami naka-uniform that day (Except for the two na hindi.. haha). at ang daming nagsasabi na para raw kaming nagtatrabaho sa Globe dahil sa uniform namin! LOL. it’s not our fault! si Mr. Rajo Laurel ang nag-design ng uniform so i don’t care kahit ano pa sabihin niyo, designer brand ang uniform ko. LOL.

anyway, that’s it for today ๐Ÿ™‚ may pasok na bukas!

Feb. 25, 2013/ EDSA Revolution Day

THAT week is coming!

what week? HELL WEEK!

prelims exams are due next week. it’s been so fast!

i need to study really hard for this. failing any subject isn’t part of my plans in college, never have been.

the other thing i’m worried about is that i still haven’t paid for my prelim tuition. >.< sucks, i know.

anyway, i think i need a new pair of pants. ugh, i don’t WANT one, i NEED one!

True Love Waits Ch. 13

True Love Waits Chapter 13

Maghihintay pa ba ako?

Pero ano naman ang dapat kong hintayin? Wala naman akong pangakong hawak.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang nararamdaman ko. โ€˜Yun bang parang kapag hindi ko pinilit ang sarili ko na walang maramdaman, bubuhos na lang ang luha mula sa mga mata ko. Alam ko namang hindi ko matatakasan โ€˜to. Haharapin ko rin ito, pero saka na. Kapag kaya ko nang sabihin sa kanya. Matagal ko na rin namang tinatago ito. Wala naman sigurong mawawala kung hahayaan kong malaman niya kahit na kaunti lang sa totoo kong nararamdaman.

***

โ€œOh, Sheen, nandito ka na pala,โ€ si papa ang una kong nakita pagpasok ko sa bahay. Napakunot-noo siya habang nakatingin sa akin. โ€œBakit ganyan ang mukha mo? Ano nangyari ha?โ€ tanong ni papa. Masyado bang halata na tuluyan nang nawala ang maganda kong mood?

โ€œWala po, papa. Nahirapan lang ako sa mga subject kanina tapos ang dami pang gagawin,โ€ minsan hindi mo rin talaga maiiwasan na magsinungaling sa magulang mo. Hindi ko naman gusto pero ayaw ko lang talaga pag-usapan. Nginitian ko na lang si papa tapos humalik na lang ako sa pisngi niya at papaakyat na ako sa hagdan.

โ€œTapusin mo na agad โ€˜yang mga gagawin mo para makapagpahinga ka na. Tingnan mo sarili mo sa salimin,โ€ pahabol pa ni papa. Parang ayaw ko tuloy tumingin sa salimin at baka sobrang pangit ng itsura ko.

Ang ending ng araw ko, ayon, humilato ako ng magdamag sa kama. May pasok pa bukas. Pero parang ayaw ko nang pumasok.

***

After my morning routine, diretso na ako ng school. I still canโ€™t get myself to smile. Mukha siguro akong sobrang problemado. Nang makarating ako sa may gate ng school, nagulat ako, wala pang maraming estudyante. Maaga na naman yata akong nakapasok ngayon.

โ€œSheennaโ€ฆโ€ may tumatawag sa akin? Hindi ako lumingon at diretso lang ako sa paglakad ko.

โ€œSheenna! Wait lang!โ€ medyo mas malakas na yung boses tapos parang kilala ko. Teka, nasa loob na ako ng school, syempre naman siguro kung kilala niya ako, kilala ko rin siya. So I decided to turn around to see who it was. And itโ€™s someone I was not expecting to utter a word to me.

โ€œUhm, hi Agnes,โ€ yup, itโ€™s Agnes. Eh bakit naman kaya niya ako tinawagโ€ฆ

โ€œGood morning,โ€ greet na ng nakangiti pa. โ€œIs it okay if I ask you something?โ€

โ€œSigeโ€ฆbasta kaya kong sagutin,โ€ sagot ko. Na-curious naman tuloy ako kung ano iyon.

โ€œItโ€™s.. Itโ€™s about Kurt,โ€ sabi niya sa akin. Napatitig tuloy ako sa kanya. โ€œI suppose you already know about it.โ€

โ€œAnd you know about it too? Kelan pa?โ€ so..ย  alam ba ng buong school โ€˜to?

โ€œAlam ko naman na before pa. pero I didnโ€™t know it would be so soonโ€ฆโ€ sabi niya sa akin. Agnes looked so upset about it too. โ€œSige ah. Letโ€™s talk later? Magrerevise pa kasi kami.โ€

โ€œOkay.โ€ So.. I just continued walking. Talk later? Tungkol ulit don? Ano pa ba ang pag-uusapan namin tungkol don?

***

โ€œSheenna, bakit parang wala kang energy ngayon?โ€

โ€œah, uhm, hi Kate. Wala, medyo nakakatamad kasi ang araw naโ€™to eh,โ€ or feeling ko lang โ€˜yun?

โ€œTalaga? Ikaw lang ata ang wala sa mood ngayong araw eh,โ€ sabi ko nga eh, feeling ko lang โ€˜yon.

โ€œOy, Sheenna, galaw-galaw naman diyan! Baka ma-stroke ka!โ€ hay, ito na naman si Billie na laging mataas ang energy.

โ€œSorry ah.. Sige maki-participate lang kayo sa activity ni maโ€™am. Baka pagalitan pa tayo nito eh,โ€

โ€œMay hindi ka na naman sinasabi sa amin noh?โ€ sabi ni Billie. Hindi ko alam kung gusto kong ikwento sa kanila. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko, pero parang ayaw ko lang pagusapan. Ang gulo ko.

โ€œSige, class, letโ€™s continue this tomorrow pero dapat bukas, tapos na โ€˜yan,โ€

โ€œYes, Maโ€™am!โ€

โ€œAlright. Class dismissed. You may take your lunch.โ€

โ€œOh ayan, Sheen, lunch na. Baka gusto mo namang magkwento?โ€ sabi ni Kate habang nag-aayos na ng gamit niya.

โ€œSheenna, friends mo naman kami eh. Dapat nagsasabihan tayo ng nararamdaman. Mamaya hindi namin alam, naiinis ka pala sa amin,โ€ ito talang si Billie kung anu-ano ang iniisip.

โ€œHindi noh! Pwede bang dito ko na lang sabihin sa inyo? Dito na lang kayo kumain, lahat naman sila bababa eh.. Please?โ€

โ€œOkay.โ€ โ€œSige.โ€

***FLASHBACK***

โ€œSheenna, pwede bang sa sky garden tayo mag-usap?โ€ sabi ni Kurt.

โ€œSige.โ€ So umakyat na kami.

โ€œAno ba yung sasabihin mo?โ€ ย umpisa ko. Pag-uusapan ba naming โ€˜yung tungkol dun sa facebook? Sasabihin kaya niya sa akin na game lang talaga ako for him? Or kaya na layuan ko siya? Hay nako, ito na naman ako. Super paranoid na naman. Sana hindi halata.

โ€œWala naman.. โ€ he said while looking at me sideways, smiling.

โ€œWala? Tapos pinapunta mo pa ako dito,โ€ I did not mean to sound rude ah..

โ€œSungit naman..โ€ sabi niya habang tumatawa. โ€œI just wanted to know if youโ€™re okay. You know, about what happened dun sa–โ€ I cut him off

โ€œOo, okay lang ako. Huwag ka ng mag-alala dun.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s good to know,โ€ then he smiled again. I canโ€™t help but stare. โ€œEspecially when Iโ€™ll be leaving next week,โ€ napatingin siya sa paa niya.

โ€œHa?! ย Ano? ! Eh saan ka naman pupunta!?โ€

โ€œIโ€™ve been studying online for it para hindi naman ako mahuli. Weโ€™ll be leaving for England. 2 weeks after we leave will be start of classes,โ€ after niyang sabihin โ€˜yon, tumingin siya sa akin. I can see sadness sa mga mata niya. Nagbago yung expression niya. Mukha na siyang nagulat then, โ€œAre you crying?โ€

Napahawak agad ako sa mukha ko at oo nga, tumulo na pala ang luha ko but I tried to deny everything I was actually feeling inside.

โ€œHindi ah. Hindi noh. Sinisipon kasi ako ngayon. Sige, Kurt, mauna na ako saโ€™yo,โ€ sabay tayo ko sa kinauupuan ko. Tumakbo ako.

โ€œSheenna! Sheena, sandal lang!โ€ I didnโ€™t stop. I kept on running. And the tears kept on flowing too.

***

โ€œWala ka bang balak kausapin si Kurt?โ€ tanong ni Billie.

โ€œMeron. And I plan on telling him everything.โ€

ย 

true love waits.. not a chapter.

i’m currently working on Chapter 13 of True Love Waits and i hope you guys could be patient enough to wait for it. ๐Ÿ˜€ i think i’ll be able to finish it tomorrow… i’m running out of ideas because i lost the original copy of it, the one i did the old-fashioned way, USING PEN AND PAPER, such a drastic event i know. lol.ย 

so it left me to just start anew…. but i still remember the important things i wanted to happen in the story.ย 

and just a trivia.. the story was actually supposed to be my birthday gift for my friend last year which was not successful because i was not able to finish it. it was just supposed to be a short story… ^_^ she was also crushing on this guy named Kurt during that time. โ™ฅ